This is going to be a rant.I need to get things off of my chest and this seems like a good place to do it.Hell,nobody reads this anyway.Its 10:21 in the evening and i was in bed at 9:15.I can't sleep for the4th night in a row.I was hit with some kind of illness on jan.1st.It hit in my throat and i felt it at the second it appeared.I immediately prayed for healing.Well,its now the 11th and i seem to be getting worse.I still have my strength,never lost it but i have a nagging caugh that is making me crazy.I'm not much for doctors until its too late so i havn't seen one.I started drinking snake oil on sunday.It seems to help with the caughing except when its time for bed.I can't lie down to sleep so i try a chair.With each day i get less and less rest.Damn i'm in need of some shuteye.What the hell is it.I seem to have things fairly calmed down until i want to sleep and then all hell breaks loose.I wind up getting maybe 3 or 4 hours of very disturbed and restless sleep and then i am up and going to work.Its starting to show in my performance there.All the people i work with understand and don't bother me.That is a bright spot in an otherwise crappy last few days.Our company just changed insurance and if i go to the doctor now i bet with my new deductable,copays,medicine and lost time at work i would be looking at 1000 dollars lost,and it is just a gamble the doctor will access my condition accurately and perscribe the right medicine the first time.Its just not worth the gamble to me so here the hell i am,typing this damn blog,whinning about me.Is that pathetic or what!
Ok,i think that is off my chest so i am going to talk a little about the good in my life.Last fall i was able to pay off my property.What a blessing.Thx.Art for all your help.We have known each other since i was about 14.I have two great sons who are both successful in there lives.I have two daughter-in-laws who i am getting closer to every day.I have 3 granddaughters who i just adore.Through all of this shitty economy,i have a job and when it seems like a lot of people around me are getting laid off,hours or pay cut,i actually maintained my schedule and was given a raise.Now that is a praise report.
Today i was closing the warehouse and right in front of me in the sky was hands down the most beautiful rainbow i have ever seen.It was huge with six, that i could see, bands of color.I stood there with my boss,who is also christian and we both were in awe of the beauty in it.It lasted for about 10 minutes and was gone.What a beautiful way to end a mundane work day.I bet we will talk about it tomorrow.
Ok,enough for now.Its 10:48 and i'm gonna try again to go to sleep.Hell,i am exhausted.
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